It is such a stupid story

What do we have for these six years behind. We did have a lot and we do have lots. Spiritually maybe and materially possibly. Then I learn about faith. We are far sometimes it feels like a dream even your presence is like a dream to me. One and two days and then we separated, you go or I go. We have faith that is the invisible bind. In our circumstances faith is crucial. For us love is faith.

Thanks to technology because distance is no longer limitation but still sometimes it felt like a big black hole with no ends like an abyss. But I love you though still miss u in the middle of my day or in the night. Still I hope to see your face first thing in the morning, smell your odour, felt you next to our bed. All we have to have and hold is our faith. Having faith on each other hold on to it without asking without any question. Loving each other faithfully even with the blindest faith. To keep on moving to make it work to do all these until it done. Happy sixth anniversary dearest. Luv u more luv u most.

And I think I find a theme song for us … Love song by the cure but I prefer Adele’s version

Blue Valentine (2010)

Director: Derek Cianfrance
Cast: Ryan Gosling, Michelle Williams, Mike Vogel
Studio: Hunting Lane Films
Penulis Naskah: Cianfrance bersama Joey Curtis dan Cami Delavigne.

Blue Valentine adalah salah satu film yang diputar di ajang Sundance Film Festival tahun ini. Mengisahkan mengenai pasangan muda Dean (Gosling) dan Cindy (Williams), yang telah menikah dan memiliki seorang putri. Seiring perjalanan waktu, pasangan ini merasa bahwa pernikahan mereka mulai menemui jalan buntu. Bermaksud untuk menyelamatkan pernikahan tersebut, mereka berdua pergi bersama ke sebuah hotel untuk mengenang kembali masa-masa dimana mereka saling jatuh cinta untuk pertama kalinya.

Kamu cerita kalo kamu sudah melihat –watching – not seeing film ini jam 5 pagi begitu selesai di download, “not in a proper time to watch a movie but yes You did”. Sebuah film yang menyesakkan. “You were young, you fell in love, you were hot You had sex, you got pregnant had a kid and thing changes. You get fat, bored, cold … you lost love!! You separated and lamented the road you’re not taken, regret it. You hate each other.”

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Apa yang kita lihat hampir tiap hari di televisi, anak-anak dihilangkan dari kodratnya. Lihatlah, orang dewasa telah menguasai mereka. Anak-anak dibuat menyanyi dan bersaing seperti orang dewasa, berkhotbah layaknya seorang kyai berkhotbah dan berakting seperti bukan anak-anak.

Kadang saya merasa cemas jika si kecil di rumah mulai meniru apa yang dilihatnya di televisi, bernyanyi dan berkata-kata seperti orang dewasa pecundang yang ada di layar kaca itu. Tentu bukan total salah televisinya, orang tua lah yang harus mengendalikan dan menjaga si anak agar tidak terpengaruh dari gangguan televisi.   Read the rest of this entry »